One of my favorite authors is Ted Dekker. I suggest that if you haven’t read any of his books you do so if you like Christian fiction that keeps you on the edge of your seat. I just finished a book by him called "When Heaven Weeps" It is a modern day retelling of sorts of Hosea and Gomar. In the book Jan Jovic is a Christian author who has written a book called "The Dance of the Dead" which became the most popular book ever next to the bible in sales. Everything in his life is going exceptionally well until he meets Helen, a woman of the street who is addicted to cocaine. Then his life and world is turned upside down as he falls madly in love with this woman. A love that has not come from himself but a love that emanates from God.
Helen had never faced this type of love and she finds herself going back and forth between Jan ands the man who feeds her need for drugs. She longs to be with Jan and yet the pull of the drugs is sometimes too much for her and she makes excuses as to why she needs to go back to her sin. Yet each time she falls Jan takes her back and smothers her with love and forgiveness. I won’t spoil the story for you, but I can tell you that in the end love wins out.
At one point Jan in talking with the Lord about his feelings for Helen, the pain along with the deep love. The Lord tells Jan that what he is feeling is but a mere shadow of the love that Christ feels towards humanity. For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. John 3:16 Jan was ready and willing to give up his own life as a sacrifice so that Helen could be free. In loving someone we must truly die to self.
All of us at one time or another have been like Gomar or Helen. We make excuses for our sin. Sin brings pleasure to our flesh, but true love is never found in it. We keep returning to the vomit from which we came. Our flesh loves to wallow in it. Then once the pleasure is slated we return in sorrow to the One who loves us more than we feel we deserve. The real mystery of God’s love is that He is always willing to take us back and clean us up once more. In the end if we are truly repentant, His love will win out.
When I was younger I was addicted to sex and pornography, sometimes the urge would become so strong that I would push all thoughts of God out of my mind. I still felt I loved Him and yet for a few moments of pleasure all thoughts of Him would be lost from my mind until I would come crashing down. Then came the realization that I had once again failed in my walk with Him. I hated it and yet loved it. I hated myself for loving it. There have been times when I have fallen so far. How could God continue to love me? Yet He did. Each time He would take me in His arms and remind me of His love. It is His love and patience with me through it that has set me free. He never gave up on me even though many times I wanted to give up on myself.
"What do you think? If a man has a hundred sheep, and one of them goes astray, does he not leave the ninety-nine and go to the mountains to seek the one that is straying? And if he should find it, assuredly, I say to you, he rejoices more over that sheep than over the ninety-nine that did not go astray. Even so it is not the will of your Father who is in heaven that one of these little ones should perish. Matthew 18:12-14
He will always pursue you no matter how far you go. He will never give up on you. If we are faithless, He will remain faithful, for He cannot disown Himself. 2 Timothy 2:13 He is the Faithful One. So unchanging in His love for you. If you are a Christian you have become one with Him. He paid a very high price for your ransom through His death on the cross.
Mankind is the jewel of God’s creation and I began to see one of the parables about the kingdom of heaven in a new light.
Jesus said; "Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant seeking beautiful pearls, who, when he had found one pearl of great price, went and sold all that he had and bought it. Matthew 13:45-46
I saw us as that pearl and Christ as the merchant. Christ gave up all in heaven and became a man to purchase us. Philippians 2:6-8 says; who, being in the form of God, did not consider it robbery to be equal with God, but made Himself of no reputation, taking the form of a bond servant, and coming in the likeness of men. And being found in appearance as a man, He humbled Himself and became obedient to the point of death, even the death of the cross. The cross is the greatest act of love ever known. He paid the price for us at great cost. Can we really truly understand the depth of this. Sometimes I sit and meditate upon what He has done and it blows me away. I struggle to understand those who reject His love. He is the Greatest Lover. The Great Pursuer.
Oh Christ, how great Your love! No words can tell! No song can explain how deep, how wonderful, how marvelous is the depths of your passion for us.
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