In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps. Proverbs 16:9
In my early walk with Christ there was a few circumstances that brought me to a crisis. When I came to the Lord a friend of my cousin’s came to know Him at the same time. I had lived with this woman’s sister when I was 19 so I knew her to a certain extent. We became quite good friends and would do many things together and it was her that suggested I use my voice for the Lord. I began to have feelings for her. I was 26 and wanted to settle down. Unfortunately she didn’t have the same feelings for me and she felt uncomfortable with the fact I had, had a relationship with her sister. She also had decided to see a non-believer as well. My heart was broken over it.
I had also made another friend who I had thought was quite mature in the Lord. I looked up to him and we would go street witnessing. One day his mind just snapped. I don’t know what it was that caused it as his parents never told us. I got a phone call one day that he had gone behind the University of Quebec and had hung himself. Is he in heaven? I don’t know. If his mind was gone I don’t believe God would hold him responsible for his actions. I guess I’ll find out when I get there. At that moment I was missing this friend terribly and the whole thing confused me.
And then I found out that the man that I looked up to most musically, Keith Green, had died in a plan crash. Never in my life had someone’s music affected me as much as his had. He was a prophet and way ahead of his time musically. I listen to his music today and I can’t believe it came from the late seventies and early eighties. I love the music the God inspired this man to write.
With these three things weighing heavily on my heart and mind I came home to my apartment one Sunday afternoon, sat in my chair and had a pity party. I wept and complained to God. My heart was broken. Suddenly this awesome presence filled my room. When God makes His presence known, you have no choice but to either bow or fall to your face. He doesn’t force you but His awesomeness, His majesty is so overwhelming you can’t help but put your face to the ground. My head went down between my knees and I began to sweat and tremble. He was looking at me and saw right through me. Everything in my life was laid bare. Nothing was hidden from Him. He knew my every thought. I could see that I had no excuses for the way I was acting. I was terrified in His presence as I knew I was a sinner and it was only because of the blood of Jesus that I could be there and yet I could feel His great love for me. A love that went way beyond anything I had ever felt or experienced before. His peace flooded my soul and I was changed even more that day. He was about to change the direction of my life.
One day as I was sitting in the sanctuary waiting for a service to begin, I saw this beautiful woman. She was the most beautiful I had ever seen in my life. She had long thick brown hair that went down past her waist and beautiful big green eyes. I couldn’t take my eyes off of her. I was looking at an angel.
When we came to the Lord they started us in these new believers classes and it was in that class that I met Monique. Monique had been in a transcendental meditation cult and had just recently been brought to the Lord by her daughter. One day Monique introduced me to her daughter Elaine. It was the angel.
Elaine had just started coming to Trinity and could hardly speak any English but was determined to learn it. She had been going to a French church in Laval but lived in Lasalle where Trinity was. When her mom came to the Lord it was decided that they would look for a church in Lasalle, preferably English.
Another one of Monique’s daughters was dying of throat cancer and she had asked Pastor Johnson and the elders to pray for her. Celine was near death and was brought into the church on a stretcher. They said she only had a couple of weeks left to live and the doctors had done all they could. She was so thin and you could see how near death she was. As they prayed for her I felt that same great and awesome presence fill the place. From the depths of my soul I was praying for God to heal her. She was completely healed that day. The doctors couldn’t explain it. The cancer had completely disappeared and it has never returned. She also now has 3 healthy children which the doctors also said she would never have.
I was part of the street ministry. We would go and hand out tracts at shopping malls and on the streets. One day Elaine joined and started going out with us. I had a chance to sit down and have a coffee with her and the group afterwards. As I sat at the table across from her I was captivated by her beauty and her graceful mannerisms. She really wanted to learn English but at the moment it was very fractured and because I didn’t speak French very well it was a strange first conversation. But it was clear I had made a friend. It went through my mind what if she is the one. Nah I said, she is too beautiful and I was eight years older than her, but I couldn’t take my eyes off her.
One night the youth choral director and I went out for a meal together and he asked me of all the female acquaintances I had, who would I like most to develop a relationship with and eventually marry? I told him Elaine. My life was about to change big time.
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